The Mad Run

I just went on a MAD run…

I was so upset that I couldn’t even drive myself to my normal running track.

I just put on my shoes, grabbed my headphones, and ran out the front door.

As my feet hit the pavement and the music drowned out all the world’s noise

I started talking to God.

God, I’m mad!

I’m mad that the world is spinning faster and faster into darkness.

I’m mad that women are being raped by men who think it’s their right.

I’m mad that children are being slaughtered because they refuse to denounce their faith in Jesus Christ.

I’m mad that my brothers and sisters in Christ are sitting in prison, tortured, and murdered for simply spreading the Gospel.

I’m mad that wrong is now right and right is now wrong.

I’m mad that the good guys are now considered bad guys and the bad guys are laughing all the way to the bank.

I’m mad that evil seems to be triumphing because good people do nothing.

I’m mad that political correctness has made us blind, deaf, and dumb.

I’m mad that babies are being killed and sold for their body parts and the world is silent but animals die and the world raises the roof in protest.

I’m mad because I want Jesus to come back right now but He’s taking His sweet time.

But mostly I’m mad at myself…

I’m mad because I’m impatient for You to come back and right every wrong.

I’m mad because I’m fearful that things are only going to get worse before they get better.

I’m mad because I feel helpless and I don’t know how to help.

I’m mad because I’m not sure I’d have one iota of the courage those martyred children had.

I’m mad because instead of praying I’m whining.

I’m mad because instead of praising I’m complaining.

I’m mad because instead of having mercy I want justice.

I’m mad because I want to escape when You want me to stand my ground.

So please help me, God, to not be mad anymore.

Help me see the world the way you do.

Help me to see people through the eyes of Your love.

Help me to pray for the righteous as well as the wicked.

Help me to have faith that You will work all things for good for those who love You and are called according to Your purpose.

Give me the wisdom to stand firm on Your Word.

Give me the courage to fight the good fight.

Give me the endurance to run the race You have set before me.

And thank you, God, for running with me tonight on the road of my distress.

Thank you for revealing Yourself to me in the glorious light of the sun shining through the darkness of the clouds.

You reminded me that You are here. You are always here.

You will not leave me alone to face what is unknown to me but known to You. 

You promised You would guide me through the dark days to come.

So use me God, however you see fit, to share the Good News that You are still working. You are still in control. Darkness may think it’s winning but You will be victorious. The day is coming when every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Until that day, give me Your joy and peace so that I will not lose sight of You again.

I ask all these things in Name of my Savior and King, Jesus.

Amen.

Yolanda

  

Psalm 59:16-17 (ESV)
But I will sing of Your strength;

I will sing aloud of Your steadfast love in the morning.
For You have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
O my Strength, I will sing praises to You, for You, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.

2 Peter 3:9 (CEV)

The Lord isn’t slow about keeping His promises, as some people think He is. In fact, God is patient, because He wants everyone to turn from sin and no one to be lost.

Isaiah 25:7-9
But for those who are righteous, the path is not steep or rough. You are a God of justice, and You smooth out the road ahead of them. Lord, we love to obey Your laws; our heart's desire is to glorify Your name. All night long I search for You...For only when You come to judge the earth will people turn from wickedness and do what is right. 

Isaiah 24:23
Then the Lord Almighty will mount on Mount Zion. He will rule gloriously in Jerusalem in sight of all the leaders of his people. There will be such glory that the brightness of the the sun and moon will seem to fade away.